Monthly Archives: August 2010

Day 178 – August 24, 2010

Look how big Harper is this week! It’s hard to believe there’s a baby that big in my belly. Sheesh!

Well folks, today marks 30 weeks. The whole time I’ve been pregnant, I’ve thought that once I arrived at 30 weeks, I would feel like my due date was really close, but now that I’m here, I don’t. I “know” it’s right around the corner, but it sure doesn’t feel that way! Boo.

I’ve been sleeping really well lately. As a result, I’ve actually slept long enough to have dreams and remember them. The night before last I dreamt about a killer tick. It was huge and killed off an entire family. Sounds funny, I know, but in my dream it was terrible. I cried about it. Anyways, this killer tick got loose in a theater and no one could find it. I kept thinking it was going to get on me and kill me, and then I woke up. Not a very pleasant dream.

Last night I had a dream that Harper was born. I had him on July 4th – weird, I know! After I gave birth to him, the doctor informed me that there was another one in there. What the heck?! So I ended up giving birth to two babies. Even though there were two babies, I still spent most of my time holding Harper. We just stared at each other and it seemed like we were the only ones in the room. It was a pretty great dream. I can’t wait to meet him for real.

So…I’ve been thinking for a long time about using cloth diapers instead of disposable diapers. Maybe I’m crazy, but they seem like a good idea to me – cheaper than disposables, better for the environment, and there won’t be any crazy chemicals to make Harper’s little butt break out.

Anyone have advice/tips they’d like to share with me? I already know NOTHING about baby stuff, so I’m especially clueless in the world of cloth diapers.

Day 177 – August 23, 2010

Quick update.

Braxton hicks. Those suckers hurt like a mo-fo. I’ve read on several different sites that they don’t hurt, but yes…yes they do. It’s not like a sharp pain or anything like that, but it’s pain nonetheless. Maybe I’m just a wimp. I had them for the very first time on the weekend of July 4th, but have not had them since until Saturday night. I experienced them last night and Saturday night at around the same time on both nights – right when I was about to go to sleep. They made me feel sick.

I’m just glad they are happening when I’m going to bed and not when I’m at work. That would be miserable.

Alright…that’s it. I said “quick update” ๐Ÿ™‚

Day 172 – August 18, 2010

I haven’t been a very good blogger as of late, my apologies. This will be a lengthy post with lots of pictures.

My paw paw Frank passed away this morning. He was tough and held on for nearly two weeks after the doctors and nurses originally told us he wouldn’t make it through to the next day. While I do miss him, I am very happy that is no longer in pain.

One of my relatives posted a picture of him and my Mamaw Theo on Facebook today. I had never seen it before, but oh my goodness…it captures them perfectly:

They were married for 69 years and they were still so in love! I want to be like that after 69 years of marriage. Here is another one of my favorites of them:

They were two of the sweetest people I ever knew. Hopefully when I tell Harper about them, I can do them justice ๐Ÿ™‚

This past Monday I had my 4D ultrasound. It was…interesting. I went in there just knowing that my son was going to be a perfect little angel and that he was going to cooperate. WRONG! He had his hands in front of his face for almost the entire time. It was funny because he was awake and dancing around ALL morning, but when I got to the doctor’s office, he was out like a light. He wouldn’t move for anything. The ultrasound lasted 20 minutes, and I’d say that the tech was violently shaking my belly for about 15 of those minutes. This did not phase him one bit! I don’t know if that’s a good thing or not. It either means he’s a really sound sleeper or he is extremely stubborn. Knowing me and his daddy, I’d probably go with the latter.

Harper was adorable nonetheless. Towards the end, she was able to get him to move his hands momentarily She snapped a few shots quickly and then he moved them back into position. Here are a few of my favorites:

I think the next time around I may skip out on the 4D pictures. They are straight up torture because now I just want to hold him. All I can think about is getting to hold him!!! I mean, I was anxious to meet him already, but now it’s even worse. I blame it on his cheeks. They are chubby and cute. I just want to snuggle him! AH!

Last thing to update about: MATERNITY PICTURES!!! Last Thursday I met up with the incredible Mandii Erwin ( to get some pictures of my prego self. I had a blast! We went to Capitol Park in downtown Tuscaloosa and we also went to a location in downtown Northport. My BF Katie Lewis was nice enough to come along to help (THANK YOU!). It was friggin’ hot. I mean…I had a sweatstache pretty much the entire time, but it was well worth it. I knew the pictures would be good because Mandii is way WAY gifted in photography, but I was blown away when I saw them for the first time yesterday. There wasn’t a single one that I disliked – I loved them all! That’s a pretty big deal for me! I actually don’t think that’s ever happened for me before. There is always at least one photo that I don’t really care for, but not with these. I’m so glad that Harper and I will have them to look back on ๐Ÿ™‚

Anyways, I posted a link to Mandii’s blog on my Facebook, but just in case any of you missed it, I’m posting the link here too:


Day 164 – August 10, 2010

The weekend is over. Thank the Lord! We managed to get everything moved from t-town to Memphis. It would not have been possible without our parents and Stephen and Susanna Johnson. I think everyone had fun hanging out, but it was definitely exhausting.

My paw paw Frank is still with us. It’s actually amazing. They took him off of the ventilator Saturday night. At around 2AM on Sunday, they called all of my family to come to the hospital because they said he was about to pass. He didn’t. They told my family he wouldn’t make it to daybreak. He did. I went and visited him when I got back in town on Sunday night. He was completely out.ย  The breathing tubes were gone, but had been replaced with an oxygen mask. Last night his blood pressure kept dropping. It seemed like he would pass at any minute. At one point, the bottom number was at 25. I think a normal reading is between 60-80, or something like that. My aunt called me today. When I picked up, I was expecting her to say that he was gone, however, she sounded really excited and said she had great news. Apparently, paw paw Frank was sitting up and talking. They were able to take his oxygen mask off and had decided to move him to a normal room. Isn’t that incredible?!?! I’m just really pumped about it. Maybe he will recover from this after all!

Today marks the first day of my third trimester. I had my 28 week appointment today. I was expecting my blood pressure to be sky high with all the stress I’ve been dealing with lately, however, it was good. Praise the Lord. When the nurse put the doplar on my stomach to listen to Harper’s heartbeat, he kicked it and made it bounce. That made me giggle. I wish Benji could have been there to see it. Other than that, nothing much happened at my appt. I did gain three pounds this time around. I’m actually happy with that number, because I assumed it would be a little higher.

My maternity pictures are on Thursday. With all the stress and crap from last week, I have developed a cold sore – go figure. This would happen on the week of my pictures! I started treating it as soon as it developed though, so I’m hoping and praying that it will go away for my pictures. If not, maybe Mandii can work some photoshop magic LOL. I just need to find the perfect outfit now. I ordered one from that I liked, but it looks terrible on me, so now I have do some last minute shopping -ugh. I’m going all out for these pictures folks. I’m talking…pedicure, hair, make-up, smokin’ hot outfit, etc. It’s gonna be bangin’!

August 6th.

I feel like I’m on the edge of being given more than I can handle. Today is the ten year anniversary of my sister’s death and my paw paw Frank might pass away today. I hate this date.

My paw paw broke his hip earlier this week and had to have surgery. He’s 92 and the surgery just didn’t go well. He actually died during surgery, but they were able to bring him back. Now he’s on a ventilator. They tried to take him off yesterday, but they were unsuccessful. When I went to visit him last night, I was told that if he couldn’t breathe on his own by today, they would probably take him off the machine and just let him go. I am sad and happy all at once. Sad because I will miss him and happy because he won’t be hurting anymore.

All of this, while dealing with work, trying to pack up my house, taking everything to Memphis (tomorrow), worrying about where my pets will go, etc. is getting close to being too much for me. I’m surprised I’m not at home lying in my floor in the fetal position. That’s what I feel like doing.

I know God will get me through this weekend and pretty soon it’ll be behind me. Everything will be taken care of and my paw paw won’t be in pain anymore. I just wish all of this didn’t have to happen at the same time. It’s a lot.

Day 159 – August 5, 2010

I really just don’t even have words right now….SO much has been happening. I thought that I’d have nothing to do while Benji was in Memphis, but this week has been jam-packed. Almost every night this week someone has come to look at our house. The lady who saw it last night decided she wants to rent it. She’s in a terrible situation right now. Basically, she was renting a home and the landlord was taking her rent payments, but not paying the mortgage, so the house she was living in is now in foreclosure. She has two children and is pretty much being forced out of her house through no fault of her own, so she needs somewhere to move ASAP. With that being her situation, Benji and I are going to go ahead and move out this weekend, so that she can move in on Sunday. This weekend is sure to be hectic.

God has made every single detail of this Memphis move work out so far, and now I’m trustingย  Him to work out one more small detail – our pets. Our apartment in Memphis requires a $300 nonrefundable pet deposit per pet. On top of that, they charge a $20 monthly fee (again, per pet) to keep an animal in the apartment. If we were to take both Swiper and Mumbles with us, we would have to pay $600 for the deposit and then $40 a month to keep them – wowzers! That’s a lot!ย  We are trying to get someone to take our beloved pets so that we won’t have to take them to a shelter. I actually started crying today just thinking about sending them to the shelter. Our biggest concern right now is getting Swiper into a good home. If we can’t find a home for Mumbles, we will most likely try to take him with us and just pay the deposit and monthly fee. I just can’t stand the thought of putting him in a shelter. He freaks out in unfamiliar places…combine that with his age (4 yrs), and he would almost certainly have to be put down because no one would adopt him. Swiper would have a better chance at being adopted simply because he is beautiful, and he’s still a puppy (at least this is what I’m telling myself). I still don’t want to send him though. He had anxiety issues when he was in the shelter in Virginia and it caused him to lose hair. He got all better once he was out of there though. It just breaks my heart thinking about having to put him back into a place that he hates. He such a sweet dog. I wish we could keep him.

Anyways, please pray that we’ll be able to get him into a good home. Maybe it seems silly to pray for such a thing, but I believe God hears our prayers even when they are about our animals ๐Ÿ™‚ Also, if you know of anyone who might be interested, please tell them about us!

Day 156 – August 2, 2010

I haven’t updated since last week! As most of you know, Benji got the job in Memphis. Our life has been slightly chaotic ever since, so blogging was the last thing on my mind.

Just to update everyone, Benji started his new job today. We both decided that financially, it would be wise for me to stay in Tuscaloosa until Harper is born, the main reason being our insurance. We are both covered through my job. Benji will have insurance through his new job, but we think the pregnancy would be considered pre-existing and therefore would not be covered. Now, I still have to do some research on this, but as of right now, I’m staying put until November.

Benji left yesterday. It was terrible. I basically started crying as soon as I woke yesterday morning. It continued in random spurts at church. I cried after church. I cried when he left and continued to do so for about an hour after he was gone. It…was…awful. I’m not normally a cryer, but I sure did a lot of it yesterday. I’m pretty sure my cat was freaked out by it. It was the loud kind. You know, when you’re alone, and there is no one around to be freaked out by your sobs, so you just don’t hold back? Yeah…eh.

But…I feel MUCH better today. After praying about it, I feel peace. I think I just needed to get past the first day. Hopefully this next three months won’t be so bad. I’m sure with these raging hormones I’ll have more days where I just cry my eyes out, but I guess that’s just part of it.

Even though it sucks temporarily, I’m so so thankful that God has provided Benji with this amazing opportunity! I’m sure it’s going to lead to great things and I can’t wait to see where He takes us!