Monthly Archives: October 2010

Deep Breaths…

Tomorrow is the day. I figured it would be appropriate to blog some last minute thoughts/feelings of mine. Umm…I’m FREAKING out!!! My emotions are all over the place. I’ll be over the moon with excitement one minute and then trembling with fear the next. It’s crazy. I have absolutely no idea what to expect –  that’s what scares me the most. I know everything will be great and totally worth it once I have Harper in my arms, but for now…I’m a ball of nerves!

I go in today for my last appointment and depending on how I’ve progressed, they may or may not keep me overnight. I’m kind of hoping they will keep me because I’m not going to be able to sleep tonight anyways. The past few nights have been absolute torture. I pretty much just lie awake in bed waiting for the sun to come up. It’s like the ultimate night before Christmas where you know you’re going to get something awesome – like a Barbie doll corvette – and you can’t sleep AT ALL. Obviously, I’m getting something so much cooler than a Barbie doll corvette, so even the excitement from the BEST nights before Christmas I’ve ever had doesn’t compare to what I’m feeling now (side note: if I had to pick, I’d say the best night before Christmas was the year I got a trampoline…just FYI)!

In honor of no longer being pregnant tomorrow, I made a list of things I “think” I’ll miss (and won’t miss) about pregnancy. Here they are:

Not Gonna Miss:

  • The acne
  • Heartburn/indigestion
  • Having to roll myself out of bed
  • Having to sit down to put my pants on (I’ve even had to get Benji to help a few times LOL)
  • Peeing 20+ times a day
  • Cankles
  • Grunting when I stand up
  • Snoring (I’ve woken myself up quite a few times)
  • Not being able to sleep on my stomach
  • The “Oh my gosh! You’re huge” comments
  • Belly touching
  • Waddling
  • Leg cramps
  • Being hot ALL the time

Gonna Miss:

  • Feeling beautiful in spite of the hugeness on most days
  • Being able to use the “Hey…I’m carrying your kid” card
  • Having Harper with me all the time
  • The general excitement from friends and family about the new life inside
  • Being able to indulge in cravings without feeling bad about it
  • Not having a period (yes…I just went there)
  • Bacon (it goes with the cravings, but it was special enough to have a line of its own)
  • My hair and nails being awesome
  • Talking to my belly without looking/feeling weird

So yeah…that’s it. Who knows…this time tomorrow, I could be holding my son 🙂 What a wonderful feeling. How is it that I’m finally here?

 

Prego Update.

Last week I had a little bit of prego drama. On Tuesday I went for my regular weekly check up. I was thinking positive and I just knew that I would be more dilated than the week before – WRONG! I was still only 1cm. Needless to say, I was slightly disappointed. It didn’t take long for disappointment to turn into shock though. Right after examining me, my doctor informed me that I was showing signs of preeclampsia. I had protein in my urine, my blood pressure was sky high and well…you’ve seen the cankles so you know that I was swollen like a mofo. I was very confused because this whole pregnancy my blood pressure has been great! It was just crazy to walk in one day and it be so high. Dr. Smith informed me that he would start seeing me every 2-3 days instead of once a week, and that if things didn’t improve, we’d have to deliver Harper early – again…another piece of information that left me shocked. I spent the rest of the day worrying myself sick thinking about Harper being hurt or born too early, etc. etc. etc. I’m sure the worrying only helped my blood pressure 😉

The very next day I happened to have a physical for a life insurance policy that I had just purchased. When I had scheduled it, I didn’t think it would be a problem to have it during pregnancy because like I said before, I hadn’t had any problems with my blood pressure up until last Tuesday. Well, the physical ended with yet another trip to the doctor. During the physical, the nurse took my blood pressure three times and told me that I needed to call my doctor ASAP. It was 160/88. I called the doctor and he asked that I come in to be checked again. When they checked it there, it had dropped to 140/82, so it was still high, but definitely improved. They sent me home to rest for the remainder of the day. I had another appt. the next day and my blood pressure was pretty much the same, but I had no protein in my urine – that made me super happy!

Fast forward to today. I go in and my blood pressure was 130/78 – still not what it was before last week, but SO much better than 160/88 – and I still had no protein in my urine. It was a very good report in my opinion. I wasn’t even worried about being dilated anymore, I just wanted the blood pressure to chill out. I did end up making some progress as far as dilation goes though 🙂 I was 1.5cm and 50%-60% effaced. Dr. Smith said Harper had also dropped some more. He told me that with my blood pressure being the way it has been, he’s not going to let me go past my due date – insert huge sigh of relief here! I go in again on Thursday and he said we’ll go ahead pick a date for sometime next week. So…our son should be here next week, unless he chooses to come before then. What!?!?! CRAZY!

With that being the case, this will be my last week at work before I make the transition into stay-at-home momma. I must confess that I am very nervous about stepping into that role. I think it will be great. It’s something I’ve been dreaming of since I knew I wanted to be a mother (and thankfully I have a husband who was willing to make it possible for me). I am still a bit nervous though! I’ve ALWAYS had a job outside of the house and not knowing what this new role looks like scares me a little. I’m just anxious to jump in and get started.

Life is good.

Breathe.

This video made me feel a little better about everything 🙂

It’s gettin’ real y’all!

10/10/10 – SA-weet!

Today would have been an awesome birthday for Harper! Our friends Dusty and Amy ended up having their baby today, and I am slightly jealous that they got the cool date LOL! We went by the hospital to visit them and it was torture! Little Harrison was absolutely adorable and it just made me want to meet Harper all the more! I know he’ll be here before we know it, but I’m having a hard time being patient.

Last night, our Tuscaloosa friends blessed us with a going away party/baby shower. It was awesome and we felt so loved! I sure am going to miss living here and being surrounded by so many wonderful people. I was expecting everyone to be bummed out at the party since Alabama lost, but people seemed to be in good spirits. Benji and I had our first childbirth class yesterday (it was actually supposed to be a couple of weeks ago, but got rescheduled) and he later said that it had put things in perspective for him, so he couldn’t get upset at the Alabama game. It was funny when he brought that up because I had been thinking the same thing during the game – why get upset over this silly football game? We have a baby on the way!!! I don’t know…it was just cute when he said that 🙂 He’s going to be such a wonderful daddy!

Pregnancy is beautiful…and so are the cankles

Well…as promised about a month ago, here is a picture of my cankles.
Don’t laugh:

Ah…who am I kidding?! You guys can laugh. I mean…I laugh at them. To compare, here is a picture of my semi-normal tattooed foot (I say semi-normal because it’s still my foot during pregnancy) compared to my swollen tattooed foot:

Sorry the picture is fuzzy, but you get the point. My feet currently look like they belong to this guy:

I love that movie. Sigh. I have hope that my feet will return to normal one of these days. And just so everyone knows, I’m drinking PLENTY of water and it’s not helping. So there. I guess I’m past the point of being able to prevent the cankles. I’m just going to sit back and enjoy staring at them while they are here because they sure do look weird!

Day 220 – October 5, 2010

I’ve been slacking. There’s no other excuse for my blogging absence. I usually “commit” myself to writing something in the evenings and then once six or seven rolls around, I just don’t feel like doing it. I think I’ve had SO much on my mind to update about that I just found the task overwhelming and put it off completely because I didn’t want to write a novel. With that being said, I’ll quickly update everyone on what has happened in the past month:

1. Car wreck. Dude ran a red-light and hit me. I had to be monitored afterwards which was so not fun. They kept me for about five hours. I had contractions, but they got them to stop – yay!

2. Publix fall. I haven’t told hardly anyone about this because it was embarrassing, but yes…I fell at Publix. Their ice cooler was leaking and they had a sign BEHIND the water, so prego/clumsy Ashley walked right into it and busted. I didn’t get any sleep that night because I was in so much pain and by the next day I was basically disabled. I had to be monitored yet again, although it didn’t take five hours this time, and the nurse cracked jokes about me being in there so much. She said they should put a fence up around me so I wouldn’t get hurt anymore – part of me agrees with that. I ended up being off work for a week and I’m feeling much better now.

3. This is related to number one – we bought a new car! We had planned on purchasing one before the wreck, but we weren’t planning on having to get one so soon. Unfortunately, nothing has been done about my Avalon to date – long story that makes me mad every time I think about it. We’ll probably end up having to file a lawsuit against this dang insurance company we’re dealing with! Anyways, we had to go ahead with purchasing the car without having the Avalon totaled out yet, but God blessed us with something that we loved that was in our price range! Here’s a picture:

4. My Birmingham friends threw me a baby tea and it was lovely. I was seriously overwhelmed by the love and generosity that was shown to us. Benji, Harper and I are blessed beyond measure.

5. The nursery…it’s done! I wait until the last minute to do everything and the nursery wasn’t excluded from that. This was a little out of my control though since we moved to another state and everything was in two different places. It’s been a major stressor for me for the past couple of months, and I’m glad to say it is finally finished!

Here are a couple of pictures:

6. I had my first weekly check-up today (ehhh…) and I am a whole centimeter dilated – go me! Haha I know that’s nothing, but I’m happy because it gave me some kind of proof that my body is getting there, ya know? Harper was also head down which made me happy. With this being my first baby, I’ve always had the “what ifs” on my mind, so it’s good to know that I can check that “what if” off my list. The next “what if” I’d like to have checked off my list is what if I go into labor and Benji isn’t here and can’t make it on time.

Okay…I think that’s it. Hopefully I’ll update again before I’m a mom.