Ok…this is so so weird (and stupid), but I have baby fever. How can you have baby fever when you already have a baby?! I think its just because I miss being pregnant. That’s also weird. Ashley Martin misses being pregnant. I hated it when I was there, but now I miss it. WTH?
There was a point in the very beginning when I told Benji I would never ever have a baby again – that first week at home with little one ain’t no joke folks – but now, here we are seven weeks later and I don’t feel that way anymore. I think I may stick to my original plan of having 3-4 Martains, if Benji is game for it. It’ll be a circus, no doubt, but it’ll be our circus – no clowns allowed though.
I love when people randomly come up to us and say “the first few weeks are the hardest.” You have no idea how many times I’ve heard that at just the right moment. It’s like people can see the sleep deprivation taking us to crazy land. Thanks to anyone who offered such encouragement…it really did help me to hold on. And you were right! The first few weeks were the hardest. I think they are hard because the baby can’t smile until around week six, so you’re losing your mind without getting any sort of reward. Now…Harper can give us the worst stank diaper ever or he can be up all night, and some how, that precious smile makes it all okay! It’s great.
I really do love being a mommy. It’s absolutely the hardest (and most important) job I’ve ever had, but I’ve never been so blessed by work in my life. It’s incredible.