When I started Weight Watchers, I told myself that I’d be doing it for life. I need a food budget and I don’t think I’ll ever be the person that can stay in shape without counting calories/points. I just overspend when I don’t pay attention to it.
Even though I knew I’d need to be on Weight Watchers for life, I also knew I wouldn’t continue doing it during a pregnancy – I have very bad food aversions when I’m pregnant so I end up eating whatever I can stomach. This makes counting points very difficult.
When I started Weight Watcher’s, I knew I wanted more children in the future and I often wondered what would happen after a pregnancy. How would I handle eating whatever I wanted for nine months and then returning to the counting points lifestyle? I’m not very good at restarting “diets” so I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to hop back on the Weight Watchers train after having a baby.
Well, I got the answer to my question sooner than I anticipated. As you know, Benji and I found out that we were pregnant in November – we hadn’t been trying – and then we lost the baby in December. While I didn’t have a full nine months off of Weight Watchers, I did have nearly two months off – long enough for some of my old habits to return.
I knew it would be hard to start back up, so in order to help with getting back on the train, I set a date for starting back. I knew if I didn’t set something, I’d keep putting it off. For the whole week before I was supposed to start, I was terrified of trying and then failing. I was afraid I wouldn’t have the same willpower as last time, since it would no longer be new and exciting.
January 9th (a Monday) arrived, and I did great. For a few days. My birthday was on that Friday and there was no shortage of sweets this year. Brownies, cake, cupcakes and more cake! I decided to take the weekend off of Weight Watchers to eat my heart out – you only live once, right?!
I mean hello…look at all this deliciousness!!!
When the following Monday rolled around, I was determined to make my first “real” day back a good one. And then I got a text from one of my amazing girlfriends up here telling me not to eat breakfast because the prayer meeting we were having that morning was actually a surprise brunch for my birthday. Umm…CRAP! I was tempted to take yet another day off of Weight Watchers in order to go crazy at brunch, but I knew if I did that, chances were, I’d never get back on board.
Fortunately, I didn’t really have much of a choice in the matter because my friends made all (well…mostly all) healthy foods – they knew I was trying to watch what I eat. Awesome! There was lots of yummy fruit and a spinach and goat cheese quiche (OMG!!!) and then…cake. Thanks to those gals, I didn’t have a horrible first “real” day back after all 🙂
Even though I did okay the first day, I was still afraid of failure on the next. I didn’t feel strong enough to turn down certain foods. That’s when I got an unexpected (and much needed) kick in the butt! I was going through one of my FB photo albums from April and I found a full body picture of myself from before I started Weight Watchers. Side-note: I was so unhappy with my body before starting Weight Watchers that I didn’t take any before pictures of it. I only took before pictures of my face.
Well needless to say, this picture knocked my socks off. I didn’t realize how much progress I had made until I saw this:
Holy mother. Wowzers.
Ha…I’d say it’s been pretty smooth sailing since I saw that picture because I NEVER want to go back there again. Not necessarily because of the way I looked either…it’s because of how I felt. I felt uncomfortable in my own skin, all day, every day!
So yeah…it’s on like Donkey Kong! So far I’ve lost a little over four pounds. I’m doing it…again! Yippee!!